The First Kind of Heartbreak

I wrote to you before so you could love me, and so forgive me but I'm writing once more

until I run out of words that would fit the meaning and even the sound of your name

Forgive for I'm writing so you could forgive me

Because once I was told that a person who doesn't know how to write will never be forgiven (same with not being able to forgive if he cannot write)

So my love, forgive me this time once more

For the very last time, I'm writing a poem for you

Starting with a promise that I will forgive you and you will forgive me too

Forgive me for not calming down and I'll forgive you for not shedding a tear

Forgive me for not staying in silence and I'll forgive you for not speaking up

Forgive me for not leaving and I'll forgive you for not staying

Forgive me if I can't seem to forget you and I'll forgive you if you can't make yourself to choose me

My love, let's make a pact, I'll forgive you but you have to forgive me too

Please forgive me for not letting go and I'll forgive you for not holding on

Forgive me for not walking away and I'll forgive you for not coming in closer

Forgive me for not giving up and I'll forgive you for not taking a risk

Forgive me for not hating you and I'll forgive you for not loving me

My love, let's make this pact, I'll forgive you but you have to forgive me too

So that finally, I can finish this poem up that has long been overdue

Forgive me if it's taking too long 

Forgive me if it has too many unsaid words

But I promise you, this will be the last, this is the last, it is the last.

I will start all over again and go back to the very first moment you smiled at me and ask how I was doing

I will start all over again and go back to the very first moment you smiled at me

I will start all over again and go back

I will start 

I will...

 This will be the last poem I'll ever write you

nope...scrap that

This will be the very last poem I will write about you

I love you so much and there's nothing left of me.

I'm done..

10 Things I Hate About You (Own Version)

I hate the way you treat me And the way you talk to me
I hate the thought that you're so far I hate it when you seem so free
I hate your bloody red nail polish And the way you kiss my arm
I hate you so much it makes me sick That it even makes me smile
I hate the way you're always tough I hate it when you're cold
I hate it when you make me laugh Even worse when you make me a fool
I hate the way you block me on facebook And the fact that you don't have time
But mostly, I hate the way I don't hate you Not even close Not even a little bit Not even at all

For this someone whom I used to know so well...8

Quotes for the Heart-Broken

I guess I am one and hoping to get out of it soon. Really really soon. I am not in a hurry though. I will give myself some time to recover and enjoy every moment of misery and promises of forever.

"How happy you are isn't determined by how many things you have, but how thankful you are for the things you have."

"Love knows no reasons. Love knows no lies. Love defies all reasons. Love has no eyes. But love isn't blind. Love sees all but doesn't mind."

"The one who has seen all your weaknesses but still thinks that you're the best thing that ever happened to him/her is the one worth loving."

"If you can't get someone off your mind, maybe they're supposed to be there. Remember, the mind can recognize what the heart is trying to deny."

"True lovers aren't the ones who desperately change each other, but the ones who successfully grow up together."

"Words are the language of the mind. Tears are the language of the heart. And silence is the language of the soul."

"People fall in love not knowing why or how. It's a very special feeling that doesn't require any answer. You just love no matter how stupid you become."

"You want and you get it - it's luck. You want and you wait - it's time. You want but you compromise - it's life. You want, you wait and you don't compromise - it's success!"

"You can never know the future; you do the best you can in the present by learning from the past."

"Say good words about others. You do not know when it will comeback to you."

God doesn't give the things we want, but the things we need. God doesn't give the people we want, but the people we need. Have faith."

" The best relationships are the ones with people who enter your life by accident but stays on purpose. "

" Sometimes, no matter how much faith you have, you lose people. But you never forget them and it's those memories that give you the strength to move on."

"If you love someone, you will be willing to give up everything for him/her. But if they love you, they will never ask you to."

"Don't look at your pasr relationships as failures but rather, as opportunities to learn and improve your relationship skill."

"Never be sad for what is over, just be glad that it was once yours."

" Don't be afraid to love. For in loving comes the strength to fight for what you believe is fair."

"Sometimes it takes sadness to know happiness, noise to appreiate silence and absence to value presence."

"It's painful to say goodbye to someone you don't wan to let go but more painful to ask someone to stay when you know they want to leave."

"The right one would never think that he/she is too good for you or you're too good for him/her. The right one thinks you're good for eacht other."

"The only people you need in your life are the ones who need you in theirs. Never make someone a priority if he/she makes you only an option."

"It's tough when someone special starts to ignore you but it's even tougher when you have to pretend that you don't mind."

"Real loss occurs when you lose something taht you love more than yourself."

"The onyl reason people hold on to memories so tight is because, memories are the only things that don't change when everything else does."

"Don't leave so much room in your future foe someone who just left you on the past."

"There is always someone for everybody. Just because you don't meet them right away doesn't mean you never will."

"No one can ever promise you they'll never hurt you because at one time or another, it will happen. The real promise is if the time you spent together will be worth all the pain in the end."

:(

Boomerang

This I think is the perfect song that would describe my situation in life particularly - matters of the heart. And this is according to a good friend too. Relate with me if you want. Here's BOOMERANG by PLAIN WHITE T's from the album WONDERS OF THE YOUNGER..


The fire was out
But then the phone rang.
And all of the heat came back again.
As much as I try
You're hard to resist
All that it takes is just one kiss

And I'm putty in your hands
I'm under your spell
You send me spinning

You pull me in close,You throw me away
I keep coming back like a boomerang.
You tell me to go,You beg me to stay.
I keep coming back like a boomerang
Around, around, around and back again.
Around, around, around and back again.

You're treating me like I'm your little toy
You tell me I'm not like other boys.
The next thing I know you toss me aside
You don't even bother with "Goodbye"s.

But when you say, "Hello"...I can't ignore you
You send me spinning.

You pull me in close, You throw me away
I keep coming back like a boomerang.
You tell me to go, You beg me to stay.
I keep coming back like a boomerang

Around, around, around and back again.
Around, around, around and back again
Around, around, around and back again.
Around, around, around and back again.

Boom,Boom,Boom
And now my heart is racing
Boom,Boom,Boom
And after you I'm chasing
Boom,Boom,Boom
You got to catch me when i fall.
You send me spinning

You pull me in close,You throw me away
I keep coming back like a boomerang.
You tell me to go,You beg me to stay.
I keep coming back like a boomerang

Around, around, around and back again.
Around, around, around and back again.
Around, around, around and back again.
Around, around, around and back again.

Realization

I thought you're different - different good. But I was wrong, really wrong. Not everybody can be who they say they are. Mere lip service. The most painful about it all, is the individual whom I trusted with all my heart so much that's involved. I really need to take this out of my chest..and still not enough..I am hurt..8

20 Ways To Be Truly Happy

I have read so many articles. I have spoken with quite a number of people. Some are considered to be amateurs and some could be experts. They all have different sets of beliefs and principles with regard to almost every aspect of our human lives. Most of all, they all have different ways on how to to be truly happy. Not only that, maybe, on how to live as a good person.

Until one day, I came across this site (I forgot the address though..pardon me) that listed 20 ways on how to be truly happy. Read on...

1. Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risks.

2. When you lose, don't lose the lesson.

3. Follow the three R's:
a. Respect for self
b. Respect for others and
c. Responsibility for all your actions.

4. Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.

5. Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly.

6. Don't let a little dispute injure a great relationship.

7. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

8. Spend some time alone everyday.

9. Open your arms to change, but don't let go of your values.

10. Remember that silence sometimes is the best answer.

11. Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and think back, you'll be able to enjoy it a second time.

12. A loving atmosphere in your home is the foundation of your life.

13. In disagreements with loved ones, deal only with the current situation. Don't bring up the past.

14. Share your knowledge. It is a way to achieve immmortality.

15. Be gentle with the earth.

16. Once a year, go some place you've never been before.

17. Remember that the best relationship is the one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other.

18. Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.

19. If you want others to be happy, practice compassion.

20. If you want to be happy, practice compassion.


There they were. Hope we can practice all of them to achieve a beautiful and meaningful life.
Have a great day everyone!..8

..It's More Fun in the Philippines and more...

..I read this from somewhere and I would just like to share this with you guys..read on..

..Since we already have the #itsmorefuninthephilippines slogan, maybe we can also have some of these Philippine domestic tourism slogans:

- Boracay, You Sexy Beach!
- Haller, Baler!
- Be Cool, Bicol!
- Thank you, Camiguin!
- Maliit Navotas, Lumalaki!
- We Fly High In Capiz!
- Go Gaga In Naga!
- Kaibigan, Punta Na Sa Vigan!
- Virac, You Rock!
- Kamuning Get Me!
- Better Leyte Than Never!
- Walang Aayaw Sa Apayao!
- Bongga Ka Day, Sa Norzagaray!
- I wanna dance with Zambales, I wanna feel the heat with Zambales!


..Any other additional stuff will be very much appreciated!.. :)

..First time again..

..Today is what... January 31st..last day of the month and marks as my first time to write something again..this will not be serious..this will just mark as a reminder that it really is good to be back writing something..

..Writing has become my outlet whether happy or sad..hungry or not..inspired or expired (chuckles)..anyway, I hope this is the start for me to go back and remember everything that makes me the person that I am now..

..if you happen to find this site, hope you enjoy reading..later..8


P.S. I have successfully edited my template being able to add "sharing sites" button at the end of every post..if you wish to share any of these to your friends out there, feel free to do so.. :)