Death Is beautiful

"I AM NOT AFRAID OF DEATH, I JUST DON'T WANT TO BE PRESENT WHEN IT HAPPENS!"-- woody allen

does anybody here who is very much afraid of death want to experience it even for just a minute or two?! for whatever reason? out of curiosity, yes i do!

i used to have a series of bad dreams, it happens between the hour of two and three in the morning. i was just nineteen then when it started. actually, i still have attacks of that oceanic feeling up until now. but you know what's interesting about it?, ir's quite unexplainable! why?! because i couldn't even directly say that it was a dream, a nightmare, or if it's something beyond that! i could still clearly remember that night when i had my baddest and the scariest dream anybody could have. that night i decided to sleep early for i was very tired. it was about thirty minutes past the hour of eight, which was quite unusual because i have insomnia. several hours passed, i was already asleep, having REM (Rapid Eye Movement), which is just normal. then, i went up to lose my shit in the comfort room--that was about two in the morning then back to sleep again. after a few minutes, i saw myself turning into different directions but when i was about to turn into my right, i can't! my head, my legs, i can't move them but my eyes felt like. deep within myself i know that i'm awake, my body wasn't though i have just went back down. so, i tried to move my right hand, it did! but i saw that it wasn't really my hand that has moved. it was my soul! my spirit! and i got scared! and i can see it clearly! what if my soul rises from me and it won't come back, i might be dead! i started shouting trying to call the attention of my mom but my voice won't come out. i was struggling and the last thing i could do was to pray and after a few minutes, i came back to my senses, it was all over. i noticed how frail i was and i was breathing with great difficulty. that led me to the thought of what would it feel like dying?!

most of the people i've talked to says that they're very much afraid of death. but what is it about death that we're very much afraid of? is it because of death itself? the fact that our existence would forever vanish without having achieved everything that we've planned and wanted? is it because, we don't have any idea of what would happen next after our life here? is there really life after death?! these are just some of the questions that lingers in our minds. so one night, when i was sitting alone, feeling stumped, i said " you know what would be amazing? if one day, i would be given a chance to experience death for a few minutes and discover that our perception of it is very different and very wrong and when i come back, i could tell the whole world that it is something very far from what we have believed and thought of and that we have nothing to be afraid of, then maybe i could ease the fear that we all have! and knowing that death is something that beautiful, then maybe it would be better to be dead and be happy than be alive then killed to death and be forever sad. "

that may be my reason why i want to experience something as morbid as death, to know that something eternal awaits us. so the next time we come across that word again, it wouldn't be fear that we have to feel but something as delightful as seeing our loved ones who have been there greeting us and saying " welcome to the world of death where life most flourishes!" but for now, i want to make the most out of what i have. you, are you afraid of death?!..8