Forget Me Not!

“Men are haunted by the vastness of eternity. And so we ask ourselves: Will our actions echo across the centuries? Will strangers hear our names long after we were gone and wonder who we were, how bravely we fought, how fiercely we loved?”

Beautiful isn’t it? That’s the opening line for Troy.

Dear ______, fellow ______, let me tell you a story about someone who I need to get to know even more. A story about someone who I don’t even know how to begin with.

This is my opening line. Listen up...

9/21. Two numbers that marked its significance in our history. The month and the day when one nation received its most significant accomplishment yet.

No, that’s not its Independence Day. It’s my birthday. I was born on a Monday, yes! It also is the exact same date when Martial Law was declared in the country.

But who am I, you may ask.

To be honest, I have no idea. I don’t know.

All I know is that, I am scared. I am scared to know who I really am. I also am scared of not knowing what I may be.

Recently, I found myself contemplating on how to give my life meaning. How to live my life with a purpose. There must be something, you know. Have you ever had that kind of feeling? Have you ever had those kinds of thoughts? Do you sometimes just stare blankly into the ceiling and look for answers?

I have been living away from home for a total of almost 10 years now. I used to go home once in every year until this pandemic happened. The past couple of years have been really challenging. And so here I am, stuck!

What am I doing about it? Nothing. First of all, I live in a nation where English is not the primary language. They don’t read English. They don’t speak English. Even if I want to do volunteer work - to contribute, to make a difference, I’d be deemed useless. Again, I ask myself - Who am I? This is not who I am. This is not what I am supposed to be.

So many questions, right? And by surprise, another question seem to have found me an answer - What can I do? What can I do?!

And just like that, here I am sharing with you a project that was created out of all this mess. It’s a platform where people of all ages from all walks of life can participate. I founded a small and simple club I proudly call “Halo-Halo Open Mic Lab” - It’s an online performance platform that’s accessible to anyone who has the passion, the talent, and the skill to showcase what they can do, share what they know, and tell the community who  they are in the process. It’s a safe place where they can sing their hearts out, dance like no one’s watching, read a story they’ve been longing to introduce, and perform like it’s the last day of their lives without any judgement. It’s a place where we communicate, connect, and feel alive despite the distance. More importantly, learn. Most important of all, believe! So far we have accumulated a total of 20 active participants from Southeast Asia, Europe, and the Middle East.

Once again, I ask. Will our names echo across the centuries? Maybe not.

Will strangers hear our names long after we were gone? Probably not.

Will strangers wonder who we were, how bravely we fought, how fiercely we loved? Perhaps not ever.

But, we can not let ourselves forget about us. We need to remember who we are. We need to know what we are made of. I made myself know and realize what I can do. I made myself remember, ME! I created an opportunity despite the difficulty.

 

I am success. I am a failure. I am a dreamer. I also am my own reality. 

That’s my story and I continue to be a work in progress.

 

Everyone, My name is ____, born in the _____, raised around the world. Thank you very much for listening and I’m glad to be a part of today’s session. Back to you, ______ Cherry!

On Effort and Expectations

People who say they don't have any expectations are the very same people who don't exert any effort. 

Imagine joining a competition and not expect to win. So why exert effort? That mindset alone has made one a loser. 

Imagine an institution that practices a "no-fail" policy. No expectations of passing. No expectations of failing. So why exert effort? 

These people are cowards. Whether they admit it or not, they are afraid of losing something. They are afraid of losing someone. But, they just don't exert effort for things to be kept and for people not to leave. 

I expect a lot from people. I exert a lot of effort on them. Whether they stay or leave or take me for granted, I don't have any regrets. As they say,  it's their loss and not mine. There will always be someone, out there, who deserves my effort, time, attention, commitment, and loyalty. She's out there waiting for me to find her. And when I do, I won't ever let her go. I hope she doesn't let me go. I expect her not to. 

#oneffortandexpectations

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WHAT DO THEY SAY ABOUT ME?

On My Romance with Chemistry

Graduated high school with a 93 score
Second in class. Eleventh overall
To myself I said, what a way to end
Hope this goes on as university begin

Here comes results of university examinations
Qualified for engineering as I passed with flying colors
That's not the plan however
As communication was a bread and butter
Signed up with Liberal Arts except for one I discover

To wear a SKIRT (I repeat, a SKIRT) as a uniform
One thing I myself will never ever conform
Made me feel dizzy, from my head to the core
Had no choice but to take Ch.E as a major

And so my romance with Chemistry began
The periodic table was my alphabet all-year round
All the neurons in my brain working as one
Even butterflies in my stomach still alive, having fun

Then, (all of a sudden) PH level though started to rise
Acidity all over couldn't be confined
Test tubes, flasks, and beakers started to break
Even the centrifuge I was using seem to contaminate

Reality dawned on me like it was some residue
Needed a perfect solvent to dissolve some solute
Rediscovering, reinventing, recalculating my every move
Only one experiment left for chemical imbalance be proved

Seemed like Ch.E and I had no chemistry
Decided to abort and pursue the first love of me
The original plan was to become a radio jockey
Which saw the possibility and exposed me on TV

Here I am right now, telling you my story
Hope it inspires you to do what you wanna do, be who you wanna be
Despite the failed covalent bonding with chemistry
There's no regret to have experimented with it
And I still think of it periodically

Oh how I loved Chemistry
It's just that, we weren't meant to be
That's all I can share on my romance with thee


(It's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all)

O-N-E. ONE.

To get charged with a crime never committed
To be blamed for faults never intended
To suffer from humiliation, mortification
Every day I ask myself for some justification
For you, that's too simple, basic, or normal
All in all, as they say, they are fundamental

I've got two eyes. One on the left. One on the right.
I see things with clarity and yours seem to be damaged badly
Of all the right things I did, good things I do
You seem not to mind any of those, and that's true
What you'd like me to be, what you choose to see
Are these grave flaws from deep within me

In this world we're living in, I get to see reality
Happiness isn't a right and I just can't be
My thoughts, my soul, and my rights, in all those sleepless nights
Suppressed, exploited, abused and my body is confined

As you can see, frailty cannot be in my vocabulary
For you, for them, and for everybody else
The me, myself, and I - absurdity personified
Emotions are dry, physical sensations deprived
And with torpid senses, well, I hide

As I walk alone, barefoot, and naked
My soul beneath it, surrounded by hatred
Questions cloud my head, should my volition be served
Or better yet conceal it than my soul be shattered

As filthy as dust, my existence to cease
I hope to be heard from my grave and be pleased
Standing alone, fighting on my own
Proving my worth, I'm gonna do from now on

When all is said and done
When the sun finally touches down
You and I both know
We're all human, not knowing what's for tomorrow

(Treat each other as ONE)

Expat Meets World (Nomadic Style)

A travel presentation prepared and created to address the needs not only of frequent travelers but also of those who are about to begin their journeys. It's a compilation of different useful tips based on personal experience and experiences of other travelers, websites, and other videos.

Whether you're planning to go on a short-term or a long-term trip, traveling doesn't have to be expensive. There are several ways to travel with less budget and hassle-free.

Movie Review: รุ่นพี่ (Runpee) - "Senior" (Thai Film)

Genre: Teenage Romantic Ghost Film

Writer/Director: Wisit Sasanatieng

Cast: Ploychompoo (Jannine Weigel), Pongsakorn Tosuwan

Release Date: 03rd December 2015 (Thailand and ASEAN)

Runtime: 110 minutes

"This movie will change your beliefs about ghosts forever."

If you're looking for a film that has a different take on anything "ghost-related", then this is the kind of movie one must not miss.

Set in an old place of the royal one 50 years back, two teenagers must work together and play detective to unravel the mystery surrounding a boarding school. This pairing however, is not your usual boy meets girl deciding to save the world as Mon, the teenage girl played by Ploychompoo (or Jannine Weigel, Thai-German) has this very strange habit of smelling anything she touches - she could smell the spirits of the dead as well. Her partner on the other hand, is a mysterious boy she has never seen before. She calls him "Runpee" or "Senior" played by Pongsakorn Tosuwan . The story follows Mon and "Runpee" as they come together to solve old cases in the past. The two of them made a deal to perform a joint investigation on a murder that happened a long time ago. The princess at that time was brutally murdered and an old gardener was accused of committing the crime although he is seen pleading innocent - he was sentenced to death by firing squad. That's when spirits started to hover the building. Unusual noises and creepy feels all over. The spirits keep on crying for justice trying to ascertain the real killer. Mon and "Runpee" must search for all the evidences leading to the discovery and capture of the killer despite the twists and the turns.

The film's actors effective portrayal of their roles plays a major part as to why this film is a joy to watch. Ploychompoo and Pongsakorn blended so well like cookies and cream. The on-screen chemistry between them was as nice and as sweet as honey. I felt the connection between them that made me feel like a teenager once again together with the other youngsters inside the moviehouse. Moviegoers reacted to their precious and sweet encounters throughout the film. The supporting characters and their supporting stories moved me to tears a couple of times which proves of how well they played their parts. A ghost story that touches different aspects of human life and our connection with each other. Mostly with monologues which I find talented and clever, one could definitely relate to each of the characters as they move and grow along the film.

The individuals working behind the scenes are not to be ignored as they're as good as the actors with all of those special effects (graphics). Throughout "Senior", the effects were so cool and amazing that it was like experiencing what had transpired 50 years ago. The descriptions were beautifully and effectively illustrated that I myself got convinced to be watching a real ghost. It wasn't that artsy. It didn't strain my eyes. It was just a mix of basic computer graphics and storytelling. There was actually a scene where "Runpee" was exploring an old library on his own and by following him, I felt like I was going through those walls as well. Call it weird. Another indicator of an effective storytelling are the camera works. The film capitalized on panning and zooming with mostly medium shots to build the tension and anticipation of something to come and yet managed to be unpredictable.

This story, complete with effective performances on both acting and effects, is great for all those who need a break from their daily those of heavy drama. It's a ghost film yet packed with funny lines the Thai style accompanied by teenage take on love, friendship, struggles, and sorrow. A movie treat for every member of the family. Mon, with her relentless attitude on life despite her tragic family story, never backs down. She herself not only found a detective partner but friendship and love that transcends time - the kind that will truly last for a lifetime.

An 8/10 rating on my personal scale; go, sitback, relax, and see the movie. Definitely worth my 200 baht and yours too..8

Vehicle Reconditioning Means Responsible Driving

Orange means "slow down", red means "stop", and green means "go!" You must be familiar with all of those by now and you should. That's a great sign that one is responsible, not only as a citizen, but also, as a driver.

Being a responsible driver means so much as it doesn't affect only one's well being but of the others as well. Let us take into consideration the people who we see on the road every day. They cross the street, they patiently wait for a ride and they trust you with their lives as they get on the vehicle to be home, with you, behind the wheels. That's how significant your role is whenever you go out the streets and be part of a journey. You want to be one? Here's how.

First, you need to make sure that you and your vehicle are in great condition. Ask yourself if you're fit to drive. Next, properly and regularly check on your vehicle's level of performance. How you see your car will definitely be a barometer on how you treat it. If you see it as something providing you convenience, then you might just give it a little attention. If it is something you consider as a valuable possession, then you might just give it all your attention. Whatever it is, it's important to specifically maintain it for more reliability and higher resale value.

To start with, why don't you think of the word "visibility" as a top priority? After all, drving is seeing especially what's in front of you and not what's visible for you. Remember, eyes on the road! There are two things to consider - the mirrors, both the rear view and the side view mirrors and the windshield. For the rear view mirrors, avoid having too many decorations for they may hinder your sight. Same thing goes with your side view mirrors. They must be well-adjusted to suit you preference and they must be clean and clear. The windshield must be free from scratches, must not have cracks and must not be broken. If any of them appears and is present, have it checked and repaired by a car specialist. Once again, there's nothing to worry about since a car specialist may be contacted right away to provide you the service that you need. Your insurance provider is also there to help you cover most or all of the cost. Another thing to be taken into consideration are the headlights. Most vehicles on the road today have cloudy and discolored headlights. This seems to be a problem for this affects one's vision by 90% at night. An auto body repair shop can help you fix this at any time in just a short time. Safety first!

Safety on the road must always be implemented. It is a rule and it is a responsibility. We need to be attentive and we need to be involved. We should always remember that driving is not just a job but a devotion. We may not be able to avoid and prevent all road accidents all the time but it's a a goosd start to have control over it before it happens. You have the power. It's all in your hands. And here comes your signal: Go!

Auto Body Repairs Help Repair the Environment

Go Green! A very common phrase we have been hearing for the past few years which means, we need to act and come up with products that cause little to non-negative effects on our surroundings. It also means that it is time for us to do something and help save Mother Earth.

From water recycling to planting more trees, comes auto body repairs. Yes, that's right! Auto body repairs. So if you're thinking of replacing your vehicle or just parts of your vehicle, you better think again. By simply getting auto body repairs over vehicle replacements, you are helping the environment to stay cleaner, healthier, and friendlier to all of us living in it.

Now, you might be wondering how auto body repairs can do that. Well, that's easy! Auto body repairs have started the practice of recycling materials like paper, cardboard, and plastics. Old windshields have also been recycled to meet the needs of its clients and at the same time, protect the environment from damages caused by the hazardous pollutants in them. Instead of putting all of them to waste, auto body repairs use the materials again to lessen the amount of trash collected then create something new out of it. Dangerous chemicals that are present while in the process of achieving great results for you and for your vehicle are also being controlled as far as their emissions are concerned. Not only that, with auto body repairs, recycling isn't the only main theme but taking good care of the earth to stay around for long and be a haven for the next generations to come.

Auto body repairs offer a wide variety of services to meet your needs and satisfaction. These include paint touch up, bumper repair, windshield repair, wheel rim repair, paintless dent removal and so much more. Name it, they have it! What more can you ask for? Plus, they can all be completed quickly from two to six hours. Lastly, they are very affordable as they also work with most insurance companies. Getting a new vehicle? Not anymore...

So, let's be together as one and Go Green! You don't have to be an expert environmentalist to take part in an effort of making this world a better and greener place to live in. Be part of the change. Go to your nearest auto body repair shop and help repair the planet!

Operation: Opera, It's Technology! It's a Brand!

This article was written a few years back as an entry to the My Opera Writing Competition. It got past the first round winning over 350 other entries from around the world.

"INNOVATION IN TECHNOLOGY. TECHNOLOGY IS OPERA."

Technological Invention, who would have thought that these two words can actually be put together and who would have thought that they will soon be taken over by one simple word - Opera.

For decades now, people have been looking for technological answers to technological questions which seem to have no solution in sight. That's when the word "Innovation" comes in and that's why "netizens" - people of the computer/net world never stopped trying and inventing more ways to make this world a better place to browse in. They have come up with a lot of ideas - some were good, some were bad. Some were useful, some were useless and some were just some...but with the recent developments or discoveries in almost every aspect of the human race and of the computer world, these mind-boggling interrogatives are slowly getting what they are looking for - enter the picture, Opera.

The word "Opera" is fast becoming a household name. It could be like your pet or your bestfriend if you wanted to. After all, you could have it anywhere you go. With a single press of a button on your mobile phone, there you have it. The ever reliable Opera browser is not a phone call away. It's not even in Norway but just a touch away. Opera on the go (if I may say).

From the first release of which was called "MultiTorg Opera" in 1994 up to the latest "Opera 10", no one would be blind enough to notice of the so many features it has developed and produced. You must now be thinking that Opera in itself has undergone several "operations." You read that right. Remember the "Multi-Page" or "Tabbed Browsing" capability? Why not the "Proportional Scaling from 20%-1000%?" Or the Opera capability of "Saving Sessions." Yes, Opera can autosave sessions and automatically restore them when starting it the next time (even from a crash). What about the "BitTorrent" support running in Opera 9 (2006) and the "Speed Dial" feature in Opera 9.20 (2007) - a blank start page with a preview of preconfigured websites often visited? These are just a few of the so many things Opera can and has to offer. It is becoming the leader in browsing and software tech. Often imitated...just always imitated. "Technological Innovation in itself is Opera..."

Now, why do you think the world needs technology?

It's all in your hands and your Opera.

The Philippines Within A Thousand Years

Here's a speech that was delivered by yours truly back in 2000. It's been such a long time already and I can surprisingly still remember the piece. It took me some time though. Thought of sharing it with you.

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More than a thousand years ago, Dr. Jose Rizal wrote an essay in which he asked, what would become of the Philippines within a century. In this particular essay, he argued for the urgent necessity of basic reforms such as the institution of a free press in the Philippines and its representation in the Spanish Cortes, that is, if Spain wanted to preserve the Philippines as a loyal colony. Still, with the penetrating insight of a social analyst, Rizal more than just hinted at the independence that the Filipinos would eventually seek. It was just a matter of time and a questiom whether the separation between Spain and the Philippines would be marked with gratitude and love, or, hatred and resentment.

That question of course, would be answered less than a decade after the essay "Filipinas Dentro de Cien Años" was published in "La Solidaridad." Now, with our freedom having been finally won and our friendly relations with Spain having been restored, we ask, as Rizal once did, if not with the same insight, at least with the same urgency "What have we, as a nation gained and learned in the past century?" "What can we look forward to in the coming years, in the advent of the new millenium?"

It will perhaps be remarked that it is only with a certain kind of hubris that we can ever dare to consider the fate of  a nation in a thousand years when our puny lives barely last for a century. Pundits might even say that this exercise is laughable for a nation that sorely lacks the foresight to even plan for a decade. But we dare to consider such criticism by stressing that the import of this exercise lies not so much in our ability to foretell the future. Its value lies in providing us the opportunity to take stock of our readiness (or unreadiness) not only to face, but to rise up to the challenges posed for us by the rapid and revolutionary changes brought forth by the new millenium.

Moreover, is it not the case that the hubris of dreaming and planning for the future might very well be a necessary stage in the participation of people as well as individuals? The ability to anticipate and prepare for the future indicates a capacity to rise and break free from the captivity of needs, situations, and concerns. But when this rising to meet the needs turn into a fantastical flight of fancy, we have to open our eyes in the actual possibilities opened up by the present and held by the past. For the possibilities of the future and the realities of the present are ultimately grounded in the conditions of the past. There is indeed a lot of wisdom to be gained in that tired old truism, "Look forward to the future, be aware of the present, remember the past."

Remember the past? Why let ourselves be bogged down by the grievous errors of the past? Why let ourselves be mesmerized by the ---- accomplishments of the past? Why such a fixation for the past? Is this not ultimately counter-productive? Let bygones be bygones. A pre-occupation with the past only prevents us from as they say, "pole-vaulting" into the future.

Here, it is important that we recognize the distinction between a paralyzing fixation with the past and a productive, insightful remembrance of the past. It is the latter kind of relationship with the past that we advocate. Within this light, history is not seen as a barren collection of fossilized facts and details. Rather, it becomes a living conversation between the past, present, and future. Likewise, we become aware of the momentousness of our consciousness as historical beings. For why would we even raise the question of the significance of the next millenium if we had not some vague notion of our being borne by the tide of history?

Sadly, it is precisely this healthy sense of history that we seem to painfully lack as a nation. It has been noted again and again that we as people are characterized by the complacent forgetting of the past as if it were a heavy baggage that must be left behind in order to move forward. The fixation with progress, with the "high-tech" with the future becomes as it were the dynamo that grinds and dissolves into pieces whatever is tied up with the backward and unenlightened past.

We need to develop critical minds that do not seem to accept the bipolar opposition between the love and appreciation of the past and the future. It is a sophisticated mind after all that appreciates the beauty and truth of a paradoxical reality. A reality in which we cannot simply divorce the present and the future from the past.

What lessons then can we learn from our experience as a nation these past one hundred years - lessons which hopefully will enable us to face up to the challenges of the new millenium?

A lot has been said about the tremendous talent and capacity of the individual Filipino to do whatever it is to which he/she sets his/her mind. Just imagine the feats accomplished when those Filipinos combined their individual talents and skills to a collective effort. Yes! Who would have thought that these Filipinos would have the gall to declare their independence? Who would have thought that they would be able to come up with a constitution? Who would have thought that - almost a century later - they would be able to come up with a relatively bloodless revolution?

It is when it becomes clear in our minds that we stand and fall, live and die as one nation, that we are able to relish and experience our most glorious moments. If only we can hold this in our minds and not forget. If only we can hold this in our hearts and not forget.

From the very beginning of our history as a nation, we have always been an amalgam of many divers cultures. Whatever unity we have gained, it has not been and will not be, through an erasure and forgetting of differences. If only we can keep this in our hearts and minds and not forget.

In the face of the current dissatisfaction and disillusionment not only with our leaders but with the very institution of government, not only with the government but with the very fabric of our society, it would be a real eye-opener to realize that we can never remain as fence-sitters. We have to be vigilant and active. That is, if we sincerely desire the welfare of our society. If only we can keep this in our hearts and minds and not forget.

Amidst the arrogant proclamation of demagogues about their final solutions and shrill cries of prophets of doom about the futility of it all, it would be refreshing to humbly acknowledge that our work for freedom, justice, and peace never ends. And in all this, never to lose hope in molding a better nation and bringing forth a better world. If only we can keep this in our hearts and minds and not forget.

If only we can hold, keep, treasure all these things in our hearts and minds and not forget.

We may well be on a good and exciting journey, not only towards the new millenium, but also towards our maturation as a nation.

Destiny..8

I have been asked this question several times and until now, I find it difficult to answer with either just a YES or a NO.

"Do you believe in destiny?" It's a close-ended interrogative yet when you have chosen to answer with a yes or a no, you can't help yourself but elaborate trying to justify your answer.

Well, I guess...Destiny is another word for not having a choice. Don't you think so?!..8

 

Brain Teaser..8

Any idea what that is?! Well, it's made of wires connected to each other with a small ring attached to it. The goal is to remove the ring from the chains of wires without breaking it or dismantling it.

I was given this puzzle the past two months and it took me some time to figure it out. You may then try it. A good exercise for the brain..8

Happiness Where?! =)

It's been a while since I have last written something on just about anything. I can still remember a note which I have posted before. It was titled "20 Ways To Be Truly Happy."

Listed at number ten (10), it is something that most of us don't even consider to be very useful or effective. Most people find it normal or natural to talk about something (gossiping), to talk about people or one specific person (gossiping), to make comments or to state an opinion. Little do they know that most of the time, we all need just one simple word - SILENCE.

SILENCE - often misinterpreted, never misquoted. This is just one of the very few things I truly believe in. This is one of the very few things I try to practice faithfully. Not that I am scared to speak up or to voice out what's inside my mind or my heart. It is just that, I have proven it to be solemn, tranquil.

When we speak, we use words. We say them out loud. Others just whisper. Whether it be loud or soft, we say words with feelings, with emotions, with meanings and with motives. And may I say, negative motives.

Words are very very powerful. They can cause serious damage to any individual. They can make or break a person. I personally would rather be hurt physically than be hurt emotionally through words. Physical pain can last for just a couple of days or a month max but emotional pain caused by words one has spoken or thrown out at someone can never be taken back. It is easy to say "sorry" but still, sorry is not going to cut it. Therefore, be careful with words.

Point is, if we don't have anything nice to say, better keep our mouths shut.

#10. Remember that silence sometimes is the best answer.

You may try it and discover that HAPPINESS also dwells in SILENCE..8


P.S. I love my silence and I'll continue to embrace it with all my heart. 

The First Kind of Heartbreak

I wrote to you before so you could love me, and so forgive me but I'm writing once more

until I run out of words that would fit the meaning and even the sound of your name

Forgive for I'm writing so you could forgive me

Because once I was told that a person who doesn't know how to write will never be forgiven (same with not being able to forgive if he cannot write)

So my love, forgive me this time once more

For the very last time, I'm writing a poem for you

Starting with a promise that I will forgive you and you will forgive me too

Forgive me for not calming down and I'll forgive you for not shedding a tear

Forgive me for not staying in silence and I'll forgive you for not speaking up

Forgive me for not leaving and I'll forgive you for not staying

Forgive me if I can't seem to forget you and I'll forgive you if you can't make yourself to choose me

My love, let's make a pact, I'll forgive you but you have to forgive me too

Please forgive me for not letting go and I'll forgive you for not holding on

Forgive me for not walking away and I'll forgive you for not coming in closer

Forgive me for not giving up and I'll forgive you for not taking a risk

Forgive me for not hating you and I'll forgive you for not loving me

My love, let's make this pact, I'll forgive you but you have to forgive me too

So that finally, I can finish this poem up that has long been overdue

Forgive me if it's taking too long 

Forgive me if it has too many unsaid words

But I promise you, this will be the last, this is the last, it is the last.

I will start all over again and go back to the very first moment you smiled at me and ask how I was doing

I will start all over again and go back to the very first moment you smiled at me

I will start all over again and go back

I will start 

I will...

 This will be the last poem I'll ever write you

nope...scrap that

This will be the very last poem I will write about you

I love you so much and there's nothing left of me.

I'm done..

10 Things I Hate About You (Own Version)

I hate the way you treat me And the way you talk to me
I hate the thought that you're so far I hate it when you seem so free
I hate your bloody red nail polish And the way you kiss my arm
I hate you so much it makes me sick That it even makes me smile
I hate the way you're always tough I hate it when you're cold
I hate it when you make me laugh Even worse when you make me a fool
I hate the way you block me on facebook And the fact that you don't have time
But mostly, I hate the way I don't hate you Not even close Not even a little bit Not even at all

For this someone whom I used to know so well...8

Quotes for the Heart-Broken

I guess I am one and hoping to get out of it soon. Really really soon. I am not in a hurry though. I will give myself some time to recover and enjoy every moment of misery and promises of forever.

"How happy you are isn't determined by how many things you have, but how thankful you are for the things you have."

"Love knows no reasons. Love knows no lies. Love defies all reasons. Love has no eyes. But love isn't blind. Love sees all but doesn't mind."

"The one who has seen all your weaknesses but still thinks that you're the best thing that ever happened to him/her is the one worth loving."

"If you can't get someone off your mind, maybe they're supposed to be there. Remember, the mind can recognize what the heart is trying to deny."

"True lovers aren't the ones who desperately change each other, but the ones who successfully grow up together."

"Words are the language of the mind. Tears are the language of the heart. And silence is the language of the soul."

"People fall in love not knowing why or how. It's a very special feeling that doesn't require any answer. You just love no matter how stupid you become."

"You want and you get it - it's luck. You want and you wait - it's time. You want but you compromise - it's life. You want, you wait and you don't compromise - it's success!"

"You can never know the future; you do the best you can in the present by learning from the past."

"Say good words about others. You do not know when it will comeback to you."

God doesn't give the things we want, but the things we need. God doesn't give the people we want, but the people we need. Have faith."

" The best relationships are the ones with people who enter your life by accident but stays on purpose. "

" Sometimes, no matter how much faith you have, you lose people. But you never forget them and it's those memories that give you the strength to move on."

"If you love someone, you will be willing to give up everything for him/her. But if they love you, they will never ask you to."

"Don't look at your pasr relationships as failures but rather, as opportunities to learn and improve your relationship skill."

"Never be sad for what is over, just be glad that it was once yours."

" Don't be afraid to love. For in loving comes the strength to fight for what you believe is fair."

"Sometimes it takes sadness to know happiness, noise to appreiate silence and absence to value presence."

"It's painful to say goodbye to someone you don't wan to let go but more painful to ask someone to stay when you know they want to leave."

"The right one would never think that he/she is too good for you or you're too good for him/her. The right one thinks you're good for eacht other."

"The only people you need in your life are the ones who need you in theirs. Never make someone a priority if he/she makes you only an option."

"It's tough when someone special starts to ignore you but it's even tougher when you have to pretend that you don't mind."

"Real loss occurs when you lose something taht you love more than yourself."

"The onyl reason people hold on to memories so tight is because, memories are the only things that don't change when everything else does."

"Don't leave so much room in your future foe someone who just left you on the past."

"There is always someone for everybody. Just because you don't meet them right away doesn't mean you never will."

"No one can ever promise you they'll never hurt you because at one time or another, it will happen. The real promise is if the time you spent together will be worth all the pain in the end."

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Boomerang

This I think is the perfect song that would describe my situation in life particularly - matters of the heart. And this is according to a good friend too. Relate with me if you want. Here's BOOMERANG by PLAIN WHITE T's from the album WONDERS OF THE YOUNGER..


The fire was out
But then the phone rang.
And all of the heat came back again.
As much as I try
You're hard to resist
All that it takes is just one kiss

And I'm putty in your hands
I'm under your spell
You send me spinning

You pull me in close,You throw me away
I keep coming back like a boomerang.
You tell me to go,You beg me to stay.
I keep coming back like a boomerang
Around, around, around and back again.
Around, around, around and back again.

You're treating me like I'm your little toy
You tell me I'm not like other boys.
The next thing I know you toss me aside
You don't even bother with "Goodbye"s.

But when you say, "Hello"...I can't ignore you
You send me spinning.

You pull me in close, You throw me away
I keep coming back like a boomerang.
You tell me to go, You beg me to stay.
I keep coming back like a boomerang

Around, around, around and back again.
Around, around, around and back again
Around, around, around and back again.
Around, around, around and back again.

Boom,Boom,Boom
And now my heart is racing
Boom,Boom,Boom
And after you I'm chasing
Boom,Boom,Boom
You got to catch me when i fall.
You send me spinning

You pull me in close,You throw me away
I keep coming back like a boomerang.
You tell me to go,You beg me to stay.
I keep coming back like a boomerang

Around, around, around and back again.
Around, around, around and back again.
Around, around, around and back again.
Around, around, around and back again.

Realization

I thought you're different - different good. But I was wrong, really wrong. Not everybody can be who they say they are. Mere lip service. The most painful about it all, is the individual whom I trusted with all my heart so much that's involved. I really need to take this out of my chest..and still not enough..I am hurt..8

20 Ways To Be Truly Happy

I have read so many articles. I have spoken with quite a number of people. Some are considered to be amateurs and some could be experts. They all have different sets of beliefs and principles with regard to almost every aspect of our human lives. Most of all, they all have different ways on how to to be truly happy. Not only that, maybe, on how to live as a good person.

Until one day, I came across this site (I forgot the address though..pardon me) that listed 20 ways on how to be truly happy. Read on...

1. Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risks.

2. When you lose, don't lose the lesson.

3. Follow the three R's:
a. Respect for self
b. Respect for others and
c. Responsibility for all your actions.

4. Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.

5. Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly.

6. Don't let a little dispute injure a great relationship.

7. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

8. Spend some time alone everyday.

9. Open your arms to change, but don't let go of your values.

10. Remember that silence sometimes is the best answer.

11. Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and think back, you'll be able to enjoy it a second time.

12. A loving atmosphere in your home is the foundation of your life.

13. In disagreements with loved ones, deal only with the current situation. Don't bring up the past.

14. Share your knowledge. It is a way to achieve immmortality.

15. Be gentle with the earth.

16. Once a year, go some place you've never been before.

17. Remember that the best relationship is the one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other.

18. Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.

19. If you want others to be happy, practice compassion.

20. If you want to be happy, practice compassion.


There they were. Hope we can practice all of them to achieve a beautiful and meaningful life.
Have a great day everyone!..8