Realization

I thought you're different - different good. But I was wrong, really wrong. Not everybody can be who they say they are. Mere lip service. The most painful about it all, is the individual whom I trusted with all my heart so much that's involved. I really need to take this out of my chest..and still not enough..I am hurt..8

..15 Ways to Enhance Yourself..

1. get up early
2. look around before going to school
3. relax and enjoy your meals
4. spend time with friends
5. pace yourself
6. find a quiet place to go to
7. praise yourself and others
8. develop positive relationships
9. see your mistakes as stepping stones
10. keep track of your own words so you can watch out for them
11. say "NO" without feeling guilty
12. learn effective time management
13. pay attention to health, diet and sleep
14. exercise regularly
15. keep from comparing yourself to others

..What Have I Done with My Life?!..

Instructions:

A. Copy this whole list.

B. Highlight the things that are true about you.

C. Whatever you don't touch is false.

01. When I was younger I made some bad decisions

02. I don't watch much TV these days

03. I love psychedelic mushrooms

04. I love sleeping

05. I have loads of books

06. I once slept in a bathroom

07. I love playing video games

08. I adore marijuana

09. I watch porn movies

10. I watch them with my father

11. I like sharks

12. I love spiders

13. I was born without hair and I still have no hair

14. I like George Bush

15. I am cool

16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year

17. I have a Jacuzzi and a Porsche

18. I have a lot to learn
19. I carry my knife everywhere

20. I can be really really smart

21. I've never broken someone's bones

22. I have a secret

23. I hate snow

25. Punk rock rules

26. I hate Bill Gates!

27. I love Chinese food

28. I would hate to be famous

29. I am so not a morning person

30. I wear glasses

31. I don't need glasses, except sunglasses

32. I have potential

33. I'm pure Japanese

34. My legs are two different sizes

35. I have a twin (!)

36. I wear a padded bra sometimes

37. I can ramble on about absolutely nothing

38. I'm left-handed

39. I hate llamas, but I'm one of them

40. I don't like horror movies

41. I suck at climbing, but I love it anyway

42. People hate me usually

43. I love pop music

44. I hardly ever go to bed before midnight

45. I hate parking fines

46. I know the national anthem of my country by heart

47. I know more than two languages

48. I can spend too much time on the computer

49. I often want to throw out the computer in a window

50. I live on a ground floor

51. I don't like chocolate

52. I'd like to be more original

53. I've lied

54. Cocks are my favorite birds

55. I want to conquer the world

56. I wonder what happens when I die

57. I've read all books about Harry Potter and watched all the movies too

58. I love my dog!

59. I love to exercise

60. I hate chemistry with a passion and math, too!

61. I love to write but I wish I could be as interesting as some people

62. I like changes

63. I hate going to class

64. I am afraid to die

65. I hate dish washing with a passion!

66. My hair is long and incredibly curly

67. My nails are nine inch long

68. My favorite color is black

69. I like to sleep on the floor

70. I am hopeless at cooking

71. I sucked my thumb when I was little

72. I should be doing something else rather than doing this

73. I am online a lot

74. I hate government
75. I don't have a girlfriend/boyfriend

76. I'm too nice for my own good

77. I love to read, I read as much as I can

78. I don't trust newspapers

79. I like debating

80. I live in a wagon

81. I clean my room once a month

82. I'm scared of American fast food

83. I have a third eye

84. I love the beach

85. I don't trust any religion

86. I used to play with Barbies only because all the other girls were doing it

87. I wanted to be a super hero when I was little

88. I like listening to wind chimes

89. I'm very disorganized

90. My hair is long and straight

91. I earn a lot

92. I don't like spicy food

93. I keep a diary

94. I can't do cartwheels

95. I can be very lazy

96. I'm sarcastic more often than not

97. I think my hair can be annoying

98. I could be sensitive

99. I love being "ab-normal"

..I love You in spite of..

What hurts the most?..

When you can’t fight for that one thing that would make you happy...

I may never be the person you look forward to seeing every day but I will always be the person who will look out for you each and every day.. Men are haunted by the vastness of eternity and so we ask ourselves: Will our actions echo across the centuries? Will strangers hear our names long after we are gone, and wonder who we were, how bravely we fought, how fiercely we loved?

Love is when you can't sleep.. it’s when you want to keep your eyes open..
Love isn’t when you keep holding on.. it’s when you learn to let go..
Love isn’t when you kill yourself with jealousy.. it’s when you understand..
Love isn't when you fall for someone.. it’s when you catch that person when she falls.. Love isn’t when you see her everywhere.. it’s when you close your eyes and she is still there..
Love isn’t when you tell her what you feel.. it’s when you give everything for her sake.. And love isn’t when you think you were blind.. it’s when you know she was wrong but you didn’t mind.

..Does Love Need A Reason?..

Don't love me for anything...You may love for a reason but let the reason be...

For a moment i closed my eyes...I contemplated on what could have been the answer. After a few seconds, I opened it...smiled...Ifound the answer - NO!

Logically speaking, there's a reason for everything. The reason why you cry is "you're sad". The reason why you laugh is "you're happy". The reason why you eat is "you're hungry". and the reason why you drink is "you're thirsty". There's more...so much more...

A few days ago, I was asked of the same question (thru SMS) and the burden of answering such question fell like an arrow not only on my dry chaffed lips but also of the republic. Who would have thought that after 19 years (daw) of my confident existence, someone would make me think about this not only twice but thrice. I even resorted to writing this. The conversation went on until it was time for her to sleep.

It was something like...

(December 14, 2006...around 10PM..)

brasil - "what if you waited for your special someone your whole life and learn that no one is waitin' for you. true love is worth takin' chances for. sometimes you don't know why things work out, they just do."

tennis - "hmmm...why things work out? kaw? may sagot ka ba sa why?

brasil - "sabi nga nila, pag mahal mo ang isang tao, hindi kailangan ng reason basta mahal mo siya. pag nagkaroon ng sagot sa tanong na yun, di na yun love...pageant na."

tennis - "hehe! ay ang ganda...not for me. sa akin kailangan may reason. pag nagkatuluyan kami ni ma--t o ni naka-- s-n, i'l ask bakit niya ako mahal at kailangan may sagot sya haha! bulok style sakin ang just because...i just do eew!. everything has a reason. i believe that includes love."

brasil - "pano pag sinabi na " i don't know, it just hit me... i never believed in forever but i found forever in you" gusto mo talaga ng reason?"

tennis - "aba! eh kung ganun ba ang sasabihin sakin kahit wag na sya magsalita forever pagkatapos...hehe! ang reason kse is like a closure. for clarity parang pag tinanong what do you want to eat? tapos sumagot ng anything...i'm just hungry...ok na yun. gutom naman pala so kakain talaga but then again walang certainty. ano ba talaga gusto nya...same thing. u love just because, puede. but a reason gives it its foundaton di ba? di ba?"

and the rest...zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...tulog na..............next time.....

ayt! ayt! but don't we have something we call unconditional? we come not to love a perfect person but we do to love him and his imperfections. the moment you found the reason why you love that particular person, that would no longer be true love. not that i'm telling you to be blinded by his foul actions on you but remember that's what makes him HUMAN...us HUMAN. he commits MISTAKES - we do. he tends to be INSENSITIVE at times - we do. he has inherited SINS - we did too! he's flesh and blood - he's human. we're human. if you have the reasons for loving someone then you might be looking for your perfect pair, your ideal man and i believe...that ideal man doesn't exist. oh yeah! he does but only in the mind.

- I love you because...you're tall

you're handsome

you're rich

you're intelligent

you're talented

What if he doesn't fall on those criteria? Yeah right! You wouldn't love him or like him...fine...but i always thought...Love is being felt by the heart and not being seen by the eyes or being think of by the brain.

- I love you because...you love me too

You're not obliged to reciprocate the love that he has for you. If you don't love him, just let him love you...that would do.

Anyway, nothing really that serious in here. "it takes faith to believe" you don't have to see it - feel it! I think it's a case to case basis, "to each his own" as she said. As for me, when I say I love you, I mean it and I wouldn't make promises I couldn't keep. and...please don't think that I don't understand because I do! I know there really are reasons but I don't want those reasons to be my reasons for loving you...

"MARAMING DAHILAN...TOTOO...AT ANG DAHILAN KO AY IKAW..."

DOES LOVE NEED A REASON?

For a moment I closed my eyes...I contemplated on what could have been the answer. After a few seconds, I opened it...smiled...I found the answer...

- LOVE

I smiled again...found another answer...

-YOU

I LOVE YOU...8

..Birds and Fishes..

"if a bird fell in love with a fish, how could they live? can one fly with fins? can one remove its wings? how pathetic...love can never change what's not meant to be"

"is there something wrong? what made you think that a bird would fall for a fish? we both know that they were not made to be together."

"you may be right but you also know that when it comes to people, there are birds and fishes, they fall in love unexpectedly, and they change unconsciously all because they love each other..."

"now i know how pathetic i am because i am a bird who has fallen for a fish...sadly...love can never change it"

"don't worry, anybody can lose one fight"

"you're definitely right, but it never entered my mind that i'll be losing the fight i never want to lose..."8

..Top 10 Rejection Lines by Women & What They Really Mean..

Isn't this really funny? but hey! do you really mean it? just asking...

10. i think of you only as my brother. (you remind me of that ''hobo'' in front of the billiard hall.)

9. there's a slight difference in our ages. (i still have my ''lolo'' you know!)

8. i'm not attracted to you in that way. (you're the ugliest dork i've laid my eyes on and even if i'm blind, i wouldn't bump into you!)

7. my life seems so complicated now. (please don't be another burden!)

6. i've got a boyfriend. (i prefer my male cat. i'd rather be a lesbian and be OUT!)

5. i don't date men where i work. (i'l better resign!)

4. it's not you. it's me. (it's really you.)

3. i'm concentrating on my career. (even something as boring and unfulfilling as my job is better than what?! date with you?! nyyorkh!!!)2

2. i'm celibate. (i've cursed men like you!)

1. let's be friends. (you better get lost man!)

Now tell me, are these all true?! Good for you!..8

..7 Dating Sins Steadies Must Not Commit..

1. Making your steady sweat through 20 minutes of overprotective parental interrogation.

2. Pretending that you know about something he prefers to when you really don't.

3. Responding "yeah right!" my hair looks really cool when he compliments you on your gorgeous looks.

4. Ordering the priciest thing on the news.

5. Talking about your future together when you haven't even kissed yet.

6. Landing into me-me-me dialogues and never asking him a thing about himself.

7. Talking about your painfully lonely pre boyfriend days.

..The Distance Between Us..

I love you so much and that is true and it has never been a secret. I'll do whatever you ask me too. And that same love that I feel for you frustrates me at times that...

- I can't wrap my arms around you
- Whisper at your tender ears
- Cuddle you close to me
- To be beside you during your times of doubt and uneasiness
- To see you through good and bad times
- To lift you up during your deepest lows or
- To caress your tender loving face

Sometimes I resort to imagining you with me, doing the things that we love the most...

- doing fun activities together
- walking frantically
- laughing laudably
- crying
- talking
- sharing happy moments
- gazing into each other's eyes and
- even staring at each other

We are very much apart but through it all, we managed to remain close and become even much closer each and everyday. Miles can never break that special bond between us. That distance frustrating me is the same distance that keeps me holding on. So if you're feeling sad and blue, remember that I'm feeling the same way too and always remember that I do care...

I can no longer imagine the world without you and me...8

..Love & Like: The Difference Between..

try to figure this out and ask yourself.

when you like someone, your heart beats faster but when you love someone, you're happy!

when you like someone, winter is just beautiful winter but when you love someone, it feels like springtime in winter (just like the song)

when you're looking at someone you like, you blush but when you look at someone that you love, you smile (hmmnn...)

when you like someone, you can't say everything in your mind but when you love someone, you can!

when you like someone, you tend to get shy but when you love someone, you show your own self.

when there is the presence of someone you like, you can't look at him/her straight in the eye but with the presence of someone you love, you can always look at him/her with a smile...

when the person that you like is crying, you cry with him/her but when the person that you love is the one crying, you may kill for him/her...???

the kind of feeling that you have for the person that you like starts from the ear but the feeling for the person that you love starts from the eye.

so if that time comes that you finally want to stop liking the person that you used to like, all you've got to do is to cover your ears but if you'll try to close your eyes and that moment happens, the love that you have for him/her will turn into a tear flowing down your cheek and that will remain forever in your heart...

define yours...8

A Vicious Circle of Life

Have you ever wondered why certain things happen apparently without reason or just beyond control? We often hear and read about commodity prices rising, frequent brownouts, and crimes committed at all times. Are they inevitable?

The Philippine media is now telling the world at large that the Philippines is now below the poverty line and this is due to the fact that we Filipinos are ignorant, yes indeed! We are ignorant! If not, how come most filipinos voted for someone who doesn't even know what politics really is? Haven't they thought of this, he was just putting on appearances and resorting to gimmickry just to achieve his long-term goal of joining that million-earning politics world?! and he even had this line "PARA SA MAHIRAP" that is why until now we are all "mahirap." The reason for this kind of ignorance is often attributed to our common problem which seems to have no solution in sight, POVERTY which results to ignorance because of lack of education then back to again -- POVERTY! We call this as a vicious circle. Is this the way our lives should go?

We filipinos are the greatest escape artists, add to that is the fact that we are gullible enough to put our lives in jeopardy. We make use of our freedom the wrong way, put someone in position and when not satisfied, RALLY!!! (welga). Hey what do you think you're doing? You were given the right , the chance, and you blew it!!! And now your one of those people out to rally just adding up to the problems of traffic?! Instead of doing such crazy things, why don't you make use of your time looking for a job and stop pointing fingers on who did or didn't do this and that. While most of us sit back and relax as if nothing's happening, some have thought of leaving the country for that's the only way for them to live normally. They prefer working abroad, but who are we to blame?! They have no education and they are afraid to get out of their current situation because of lack of assistance. Hence , they commit crime.

Crime as a social problem is often attributed to our government's failure of uplifting our educational system.

Now, I think, it is time for our government to get rid of those educational systems wherein only those who have the money can avail! And as for you people, make use of your freedom and right wisely. As part of Michael Jackson's song "if you want to make the world a better place, take a look at yourself then make a change."..8

Top 10 Rejection Lines by Men and What They Really Mean

hey guys! are these for real?! just be sure... if not these will come back to us a thousandfold!!!

10. i think of you as a sister. - (you're ugly!) >>> i'd rather not be born noh!!!<<<

9. there's a slight difference in our ages. - (you're ugly!) >>> i'd rather die young!!!<<<

8. i'm not attracted to you in that way. - (you're ugly!) >>> same here!!!<<<

7. my life is too complicated right now. - (you're ugly!) >>> my life will too! if i'm gonna be with you!!! yikes!!!<<<

6. i've got a girlfriend. - (you're ugly!) >>> talaga?! may nagkamali?! i pity her!!!<<<

5. i don't date women where i work. - (you're ugly!) >>> work?! eh tambay k lang dyan sakanto! hobo!!!<<<

4. it's not you, it's me. - (you're ugly!) >>> yah know what?! it's you!!!<<<

3. i'm concentrating on my career. - (you're ugly!) >>> career-in mong mukha mo!!!<<<

2. i'm celibate. - (you're ugly!) >>> you'd rather be!!!<<<

1. let's be friends. - (you're ugly!) >>> mukha mo friends! as if namang gwapo ka!!! i'd rather be single all my life.<<<

these are men's top ten rejection lines just to be fair, i decided to present them with what i call women retaliation! dapat lang siguro!!! as if namang gwapo itong lalaking ito para umarte ng ganito. beware!!! guys, let's face the mirror first!!!..8

"KUN-O" (Mga Kunyaring Tao)

Malapit na ang eleksyon, kapag ganitong mga panahon, dumarami na ang tao sa daan at ang lahat ay nakikipagmabutihan. Mayroong mga kumakaway at mayroon din namang mga kumakamay na para bang "friends" kayo at pagdaan sa harap ko, nag-isip ba ako o ako na ay nalito?

Ang ganda nya, ang pogi nya at ang kutis nila ay mapupula akala ko nga ay mga artista (ang ilan sa kanila, oo). Kinamayan ako pero natandaan ba ako? Kinawayan din ako pero sigurado bang ako e nakashades papaano?! Lahat ng iyan ay nakakamangha, nakakaaliw, at higit sa lahat, sobrang magulo! Minsan nga mas gugustuhin ko pang huwag na lang bumoto! Kapag hindi ko naman ginamit ang karapatan kong ito, dalawang bagay lang ito, ang may bumoto para sa akin o ipagkatiwala sa iba ang bukas natin. Kapag bumoto naman ako, dalawang bagay lang ulit, ang manalo ang ibinoto ko o iba ang manalo! Napakasimple pero dapat pa ring pag-isipan. Gawin ko ang bukas ko o ang bukas ang magdikta at gumawa ng buhay ko?! Hindi dapat pagkatiwalaan ang hindi katiwa-tiwala at huwag ding hayaang sirain ng bukas ang ating mga ipinundar!

Napansin ko lang, ang daming gustong maging pangulo. Bakit kaya 'di natin baliktarin ang mundo? Bakit 'di tayo magbotohan kung sino ang simple at totoong tao? Sigurado ako, kakaunti ang mananalo. Ano ba kasi ang maganda sa posisyong ito? Napakaliit na gusot, wala kang lusot! Hindi ka mangurakot, mabuti kang tao, wala ka nga lang matinong trabaho. Mangurakot ka, mayroong trabaho yun nga lang, masama ito! Ano ba talaga kuya?! Ang lahat ng problema, ay sa iyo idinudulog samantalang ikaw ay walang madulugan. Ikaw din ang nagsisilbing sumbungan ng bayan, samantalang ikaw ay walang masumbungan! Hindi ka naman diyos ngunit ikaw ay sinasamba. Mabait ka naman, mukha ka nga lang masama! Ang laging dahilan ay ang makapaglingkod sa bayan kaya gustong manalo sa halalan pero 'pag sinabihan mong kailangang maglinis ng daan, ang sasabihin ay "may metro-aide naman." Bakit 'di na lang pala metro-aide ang gawing pangulo ng bayan? Isa pa! Sabi nya, sya daw ay "makahirap" kaya naman pala tayo ay 'di na makaahon sa hirap!

Isa lang naman ang gusto kong mangyari, manmanan ang balota, magmasid at makialam. Sa panahon natin ngayon, hindi naman yan kasalanan! Ang lahat ay dapat kumilos nang tayo ay umunlad. Kung hindi tayo ang kikilos, sino? ANG MUNDO?! Oo! Pababa nga lang! Kaya sana pag-isipan natin ang bagay na ito, ang botohan! Ipanalanging walang mangyaring dayaan, walang dagdag bawas at ang mga patay ay manatiling patay baka mamaya lang kasi bigla silang mabuhay. Alam nyo bang maaari nating ibahin ang nakaraan at huwag ng bumalik sa mali nating pananaw at nakagisnan? Io! Hindi yan malayo sa posible at katotohanan. Ang lahat ng 'yan ay nasa ating mga kamay kaibigan!..8

To Wed or Not To Wed

have you ever wondered why a man marries a woman for a particular reason or for no reason at all?! is this part of their obligations or is this just for the sake of formality?!

well, for me it's just for the sake of formality! why?! try to figure this out! is it really an obligation for a man to marry a woman just for the stupid reason that he got her pregnant? is it an obligation or a sacred thing that must be followed before they could be together and have that three letter word called " heaven?" or is this part of what we call formality just to be able to say and even shout in front of so many people that you are married even if you don't love that person? the only reason you married her in the first place is because the woman is already pregnant and you have to give the child his rights, give him a name and make him legitimate! and worst, to cover up the family's reputation that has been ruined because of what?! youe stupidity! no!!! don't get me wrong, i am a woman in the real sense of the word and i myself had also dreamed of my "perfect" wedding but it would only be an insult to me if i got married out of those reasons.

" most men are just the same, they're just interested in fu**ing you and they don't care whether you're happy or sad. they just want to get on with their bussiness in and out of bed, and they'll make you feel that you don't count except as their s*xtoy." this was what Cameron Diaz said in one of her interviews when she was asked about men. and as for me, it was all true!

i'm not telling you not to marry anymore but if you don't want to be like any woman who has experienced those things then try to think about it first. remember that love most of the time is not enough to maintain a relationship. as Franklin once said, " where there's marriage without love, there will be love without marriage." your certificate of marriage is just a piece of paper, and a piece of paper doesn't prove anything. if you really have the urge and you have already set your mind that "he" is the person you want to spend the rest of your life with, with or without marriage, you would definitely prevail. now! have you thought about it?!..8

Stop It Now (Tips on how to quit smoking)

"a woman is only a woman but a good cigar is a smoke!" - R. Kipling

we've all heard of the famous line, "government warning: cigarette smoking is dangerous to your health." but do we really take it into consideration or is it just a part of our everyday life as we watch and listen to radio and television commercials? that is actually one of the reasons why most people die of lung cancer at avery young age. they say that it's quite difficult to quit smoking for it has been a great part of their lifestyle but honestly, it's not that difficult. all you've got to do is continue reading this and find out how.

1. if you have just started, stop it right away!

2. do not smoke! in the first place, why the need to smoke?

3. give alms to beggars. let them buy the cigarette and let them smoke for you!

5. be afraid of acquiring tuberculosis! YIKES!!!

6. or better yet, remove your lungs. PAGING: LUNG CENTER!!!

7. shout at the top of your lungs and shout "i quit" till u die!

8. subject yourself to abrupt changes. FROM SMOKING INTO DRINKING: SMB Php 13.50 only! hehe...

9. have an x-ray and be terrified of what you'll see, hallow!!!

10. you can still buy cigarettes don't worry but, chew it!!!

now don't you find it amazing that i still care about your health? and now that you've read my tips and i could say options, i think it's better if you will not just read it but keep it in your hearts and in your minds and never ever forget. for sure, positive outcomes will definitely come to you a thousandfold!..8