..First time again..

..Today is what... January 31st..last day of the month and marks as my first time to write something again..this will not be serious..this will just mark as a reminder that it really is good to be back writing something..

..Writing has become my outlet whether happy or sad..hungry or not..inspired or expired (chuckles)..anyway, I hope this is the start for me to go back and remember everything that makes me the person that I am now..

..if you happen to find this site, hope you enjoy reading..later..8


P.S. I have successfully edited my template being able to add "sharing sites" button at the end of every post..if you wish to share any of these to your friends out there, feel free to do so.. :)

The Second Kind of Heartbreak

You want to know what a heart break is?

Its not when your long time crush finally had a girlfriend and its not you.

It’s not about your boyfriend finally realizing that he doesn’t love you anymore.

It’s not even you realizing that the one you love will never love you back.

Heartbreak is when you realize that the quest for knowledge is finally over. That the time and tide do not truly understand the aches and the pain of not being able to max out the opportunity of learning something everyday.

Heartbreak is when the passion that you have all dried up. Not because you ran out zeal or enthusiasm, but because they don't find you interesting enough - not anymore. And they are not even discreet about it. As though, every time they're told something substantial they'd rather turn the other cheek. 

( that they would deliberate tell them something substantial but they turn the other cheek.)

A heartbreak is realizing that you wanted to be the one who would make the ripple that would cause change and then realizing that nobody wants to join your ripple. That what you are saying every waking hour is as good as dozing off.

Heartbreak is when you realize that you need to get out of this  (of the institution because the students does not) because they don't share the same sentiments much more vision of how you want them to be. How you want things to be.

Finally, heartbreak is knowing that you wanted them to be better but they refuse to be one. I wanted them to be exceptional. Outstanding. Far more better than I am

I have been heartbroken.

Many, many times.

And I am tired.

And I am suffocated.

And I need a reason to stay

…But I cant

..The Cube..

..According to some people, it's not easy to be happy.. I was thinking of the same thing until one day, something just hit me and I felt like..oohh..happy.. plain and simple...happy!

..This may sound so weird but that something which made me happy was this little cube of six colors - Rubik's cube! my first attempt? 3 days! 2nd? 1 day and just tonight while taking a long break from work, 10 minutes..yeah you read it right. 10 minutes. no plans of joining speedcubing in the future but the fact that I was able to solve the mystery about the cube was so amusing. I'll try again. Got to work..8

..Let's take the plunge..

..There are things in life that we really want to experience and there are people who are very much willing to make that experience memorable for you but the question is, are you willing to give it a shot especially if that kind of experience has to go against what is proper and what has been dictated by the society? if you are then show up, tell it to my face and I volunteer myself without any second thoughts, let me be that person to take you where your life has never been...I'm telling you.., "I never came! I was there all along..." just let me...8

????...

ayaw ko ang matulog
ayaw ding pumikit
ni ayaw maidlip
para bang sa aki'y bangungot ang kalakip

ayaw kong dumilat
ayaw ding gumising
takot sa katotohanang...
ako'y nahimlay na't wala sa iyong piling
gawa ng bangungot na sa aki'y kumitil

???

ngayon...
kasabay ng pagsikat ng araw
ang pagsambulat ng damdaming
naghihimutok...
naghuhumiyaw...

bunga ng mga panahon ng pananahimik
tila nagbabadya ng katapusan, ng wakas...
wakas na ni minsa'y hindi sumagi sa isipang
kailan lang ay musmos

kamusmusang patungo sa mapaglarong tadhana
tadhanang hindi inalintanang akin...

at...
sa aking mga kamay

ngayon ang araw ay hindi na muling masisilayan...

..The Art of Detachment..

..The past few days actually gave me enough time to contemplate and realize some of the best moments that I ever had in my life..A time when I got to spend time with material things. A time to be with new people and be friends with them. Time to be with those people that I really cared about. A time when my whole world revolved around someone or something and a time to be one with myself. Best? I think so but I have to let them all go now. Remember, never hold on to things because everything in this world is impermanent. Once in a while, we need to detach from each and everyone of them. The biggest question is "HOW".

..Going deep into the root of all this might be of great help. It's like knowing what the problem is and then finding a solution to solve it. Whenever there are things that make us feel loved and given importance of, we tend to cling on to them and those I think cause us so much pain in the end. One would even ask "why did it have to happen if it wouldn't last long?" "why do i need to go through all of those stuff and leave me hurting?" the answers to those questions might take us a long time to comprehend - we tend to deny things as they happen. Acceptance is not an option (at first). We get hurt, we feel pain, we feel ignored. Normal. Pathetic. That's why we need to be prepared at all times. We have to accept what's going to happen next. We need to detach. Detach from them.

..For every positive things, there are negative things at the other end. For every dark tunnel, there's light. For every sadness, there's joy. For every thing in this world, there's pain. Loneliness. And I am just tired. Sick and tired of doing the same old sh*t all the time. I am trying to learn. Just learn...

..I still have a lot to share, a lot to say, it's just that, I don't know where to begin. I'll just wait! Just wait...8

..The Ten Commandments of How to Get Along with People..

1. Keep skid chains on your tongue; always say less than you think. Cultivate a low, persuasive voice. How you say it often counts more than what you say.

2. Make promises sparingly and keep them faithfully, no matter what it costs you.

3. Never let an opportunity pass to say a kind and encouraging thing to or about somebody. Praise good work done, regardless of who did it. If criticism is needed, criticize helpfully, never spitefully.

4. Be interested in others; interested in their pursuits, their welfare, their homes and their families. Make merry with those who rejoice; with those who weep, mourn. Let everyone you meet, however humble, feel that you regard him as one of importance.

5. Be cheerful. Keep the corners of your mouth turned up. Hide your pains, worries and disappointments under a smile. Laugh at good stories and learn to tell them.

6. Preserve an open mind on all debatable questions. Discuss, but don't argue. It is a mark of superior minds to disagree and yet to be friendly.

7. Let your virtues, if you have any, speak for themselves, and refuse to talk of another's vices. Discourage gossip . Make it a rule to say nothing of another unless it is something good.

8. Be careful of another's feelings. Wit and humor at the other fellow's expense are rarely worth the effort, and may hurt where least expected.

9. Pay no attention to ill-natured remarks about you. Simply live that nobody will believe them. Disordered nerves and a bad digestion are acommon cause of backbiting.

10. Don't be too anxious about your dues. Do your work, be patient and keep your disposition sweet, and you will be rewarded.